Whats on your mind

I am here reading this book in the library by June Yip- "Envisioning Taiwan", and there is a paper due tomorrow about postcolonialism as an appropriate context to evaluate films in Taiwan. I just want to say that why postcolonialism? Maybe I've never experienced a culture such as "postcolonialism", but I think even Taiwanese people are that clonialized. Forgive my grammer or spelling, but I dont think the taking over of KMT can be considered as colonialization, does it?

just like can you say the Qing dynasty, the manchu colonialized China? it is just a different kind of culture and I have nothing to write at this time.. sigh final... take home paper... sleepless night..

First but maybe the last

This is my first time using this site, and i know i am definetly not a blogger. I write this for myself eventhough I dont know I would ever going to read it again.

Today I finished my last final exam of the quarter. It is math, and I've been struggling with math since the first day I attended school. The test was hard, harder than I thought at least, and there is a big posibility now that I might be failing it.... sigh

I cannot remember how many times I have to take math over and over again, I am a little disappointed at myself but also worried at the same time. I dont know how to face my mom, I know she worked extra hard for me to go to college, and what I did? anything but study, and I am already wasted enough time for this course, it stopped me from taking upper class of my major- Economics, yes as bad as it sounds now a days.

What should I do, how am I going to face it?

life gose on, sun is gonna come out again, and me?....